Aww.. it seems that this is the last time i'll be posting for a while since my professor for english posted something that seemed like a goodbye. xD

Either way, it was fun posting random thoughts and stuff... I kinda wish I was a bit more organized about it though...

I'll still be posting cause I wanna keep updating this--its fun to look back on what I wrote before and how I thought of things... pretty interesting i'd say!

But anyway, fun quarter. Now back to studying for finals! Blarrr (english final tomorrow X_X)

Hope next quarter english will be just as fun! I'll have professor scott again for 01SC xD yay!

I just took a 5 hour nap. INCONCEIVABLE!!!

Sorry, I just had to do that. Anyways, i always forget to update this... haha. I probably won't get a very good grade on it. Anyway, I'm planning on posting more screenshots of the game I play, but I haven't really been...playing... due to midterms and finals and such. I've just been so busy, ARGH! School is evil.

Life is horrible! School keeps me busy, makes me stressed... my boyfriend is 2188 miles away... I think i'm failing biology, chemistry, AND math, and wow I think I wanna commit suicide ;_;... Of course, I won't. Cause who in their right mind would write about their plan to commit suicide on facebook 8D? Not me! (I'm not that emo, don't worry). Anyway, I've been slacking on this thing... like usual. I missed out on a lot of stuff I wanted to say from the previous week.

About that one hospital day... I met a man in his... late 50's?... but he was really kind. I talked to him about his family and he told me that he never imagined someone like him would get married and have children--two wonderful boys. And here he is, in the hospital connected to a heart monitor. It made me think a bit... Why is life so kind to us, but also so cruel? Here, a man in his late 50's, has a wife and sons who are in their young adolescent stage (10-13, I believe), is lying sick in a bed... his heart is failing him and he is lying on his back watching the news. It made me so sad... of course I didn't let him know that. He talked and smiled to me as if everything was normal, and I did the same. Hospital cues called me though--Had to get back to work and tend to the other patients. But I always stopped back by his room to say hi and ask him if he needed anything. It sort of made me sad to think that someone like him could have lived such a beautiful life with his wife and kids... but life is so short and fragile that he can only enjoy the small happiness that makes life worth living.

Don't get me wrong, i'm very happy for him. I met a guy today that wrote a paper on how "nice guys finish last". This is true, I guess XD... but you know... even if they do finish last, they get the best happiness there is. Then it made me think of my boyfriend and how he's too nice for his own good--will I eventually fall out of love with him too? Will I get bored of his kindness to me?... Nah... not all girls are like that, y'know. I love my boyfriend for who he is, because we have common goals, common interests, common ...lots of other things. Of course I hate ketchup and he loves it... but that doesn't stop me from loving him. Everyone has their arguments, and I think that the best part of being in a relationship, or rather having a relationship at all, is having the experience of loving someone and being loved (in whatever way that may be). Even if the love is somewhat... I dunno... artificial? It's still called love. Even if someday i'll believe that this love I have now will end, i'm still glad that I had the experience. I think that even if people say they regret falling in love or being in love with a certain person--deep down, they really don't because that experience will transfer over to the next person they fall in love with, and they can share what they felt and improve it with that new person. I don't know, I think i'm thinking too much into this stuff >_> or maybe it's just because I needed something to think about while I type up random words for this journal thing and I thought about writing about this dude at the hospital I met weeks ago and couldn't get out of my head to write about. Lalalla.

Anyway, that does bring me back to the mysterious sick man at the hospital. He is old, has a wife and kids, and lives a happy life. He can smile even in the most difficult of times--in pain at the hospital, his heart connected to a beeping monitor, and having strangers at the hospital care for him. That, my friends, is what I think love is, and what I think life is worth living for. I would never have said this, if it hadn't been for me being with my boyfriend, which I shall now dub "danny". I would never have said this years ago when I was alone and thought love was a joke. Of course, everyone changes when they finally think they've met that one person they think is "the one". I'm not saying that danny might really be "the one", but he comes pretty damn close to it. I guess everyone just needs a little insight to be able to see things in a new perspective.

I did. When I met this kind hearted man at the hospital, and when I fell in love with Danny.



G'night

mm... just a short post. Just wanted to say a bit of how BORING yesterday was. I went to my usual CCE shifts at the hospital--and what sucked the most was that more than half the rooms the patients were in were TB isolation rooms... which was pretty lame because I can't really go into them -_- (we aren't allowed to). But that day was pretty lame, i'd say!

anywho... nothing really happened this week. I had my bio midterm on friday... and I hope that i passed it. I studied so much for it because i did so horribly on the last midterm. I'll just pray to god I did well XD...

Either way, i need to finish other homework. Ja mata ne.

 Kay, so I have a lot to catch up on. I was originally planning on posting earlier, but i've been so gosh darn busy with school and stuff that I haven't even had time to type in the URL for facebook. ZZZ!!!

Soo.. I guess i'll start with what went up last week (starting wednesday I believe) up till today. Please forgive my like... really bad grammar or random stuff. I'm not even going to go back and edit this. I've had about 3 hours of sleep total for a couple days haha. I need rest... yawn.

Wednesday the 18th! Well today I think was the day I saw a car on fire for the first time on the freeway. I mean like, i've seen cars on fire before... on TV, but not in like...real life. It was pretty... interesting? I don't know. I guess the things I thought that time were... WOW I'M TOTALLY PUTTING THIS ON MY FACEBOOK! Lol, kidding. Actually, posting did pop up after I thought a bit about it and it just got me thinking of how fragile human life is. While driving past the vehicle (the dumb firetruck was in the way by the time I got there, they just kinda drove by us, haha) I was trying to strain my eyes to see if there was someone inside the car. I don't know why I was looking... I guess I was just hoping that it was just a prank and not some random person being blown to bits inside their car... I don't really read the news so I guess i'll never find out what happened. But it just got me thinking... if there was someone in there, could there have been something that could have been done differently to save that life? Why is life so fragile I wonder.... and then I started thinking about how I had work at the hospital that day. Could I have saved that life.... if I was a bit older and mature I wonder?

But either way. I went to CCE later that night and it was fun. I think I met a couple interesting people, as well as a registered nurse that goes by the name OBI! (short for obiwanne, SO AWESOME!) But yeah... I pretty much forgot all I was going to say for that day... maybe it's cause i'm too tired and lazy to remember. Who knows.

Umm... I think that was it I wanted to say for that day... then it just sorta jumps to saturday where I did work at the hospital again. Curse you CCE! But it's really really interesting and a good experience. The things I remember the most were like... wiping an old lady's butt after she pooped. ew. 8D.... It was stinky and.... WEIRD! I never saw another woman's vagina so close up and was the one who had to clean it. Wow. hahahahhaha oookay! MOVING ON! I also had to stay another 30 minutes after my shift because a patient needed help going to the bathroom. I had to watch over her. Poor gal. She has bowel movement problems I guess... along with her heart problems. Being at the hospital makes me a bit saddened that I can't really help people as much as I'd hope to. I can only make their day a bit better by doing minor things such as getting them what they need, talking to them if they're lonely... or just being there in general to help out in any way I can. I was listening in on some nurses talking medical terms. One day I hope to be able to do that and understand what the heck i'm talking about xD haha. But that's still a ways away. Goodluck, evie. -_-....

Anywho, did I mention most of my shifts are from 7-11 PM? haha. I couldn't get hold of any earlier shifts... and I swear I probably wont even have shifts next month cause of all the new recruits. Sigh. I guess i'll just have to catch up in the following months. Gotta work it all up! Gotta hit that 48 hours before rotation A is over. Roar. Anyway i'm tired of typing, I need to finish my dinner, and I have to study for my biology midterm this friday or i'll fail, AGAIN. 

Wish me luck, i'll be desperately needing it. I probably left out a whole crapload of things I wanted to say, but I guess they'll just never be said cause they'll be forgotten. Which brings me to something I just thought of--It would be nice if we could remember lost memories or things that we were going to say or do in the past. It would make it interesting to see how you were going to go about doing things... or saying things to other people. But they're always so insignificant that in time, it doesn't really matter. Why is the world so complicated? Why can we live like... ants where like.... all we do is walk around, gather food for queen mama ant to make more bebes. Ahhh why is life so... COMPLICATED!


I hate you school. ;_;


Oyasumi--post more later... hopefully.

 Happy Valentines!

xD Got the present from the boyfriend, they were roses! Haha. It was pretty cute, i've never gotten a vase full of flowers before :D. It made me pretty happy. He also sent me a box full of really corny stuff! Haha. He sent me his jacket and long sleeve, to keep me warm at night. They fit perfectly +___+!! Let's just say i'll be wearing them a lot now :D hurray! No more need to shop for jackets haha.

mm... he also sent me a brown long sleeve. I love it! (cause my favorite color to wear is brown xD) Okkk, enough of that!

Soo.. how were all of your valentines, guys?!?! (no one really reads this haha)

But either way, that's all i wanted to say. I have to work on homework now :D procrastination day over! I have a midterm for chem to study for too :(... and I need to figure out what the heck we did in english class on thursday! RAAWRRR!

 

Oyasuminasai!

Edit:


Happy Friday the 13th, Haha.

ROAR! Ok so I haven't been posting (like I said earlier) and sorry! I've just been... so... goshdarn busy! So I guess i'll take this time to update on what's been going on.... and stuff. I hope i'm not backtracking too much!!

Anywho, So the day before I went to CCE. It was pretty... interesting. I did a lot more things that I thought I would do. Haha. But anyway, I was excited to be in the program. I didn't do much--just pretty much asked the nurses and everyone if they needed any help and asked the patients too. Didn't really see or do anything exciting. Boo. I hope the next few times i'll be able to see cool stuff (my friend who is in the program brags too much! I wanna out brag him one day! >E ROAR!)

But besides that, tomorrow is valentines! yaaay. But this valentines is kinda special I guess--it'll be my first actually having someone I like give me something xD. I wonder what it is! But then again, don't we always wonder what we'll get! I feel sorta spoiled, I wonder what that loser boyfriend got me >_> /suspicious! He sent me his jacket, haha, what a loser! It's like a really long story between us. Maybe if I feel like making it public i'll actually try telling the story here. Meh. Who knowssssss..... but either way. Tomorrow--valentines! Hope everyone has a good one (a non emo-eat-chocolate-cake-and-watch-tv-alone kind of days 8D) haha

Umm what else what else! Oh right. I have to finish my CPR (calibrated peer review) for bio still. I need to answer one more thing, and i'm already over the word count -_-! That kind of sucks! I have to revise it later. Maybe for my english essay i'll do evaluation on photosynthesis and cellular respiration--which one is more important... haha >_>. Not!

Which reminds me, I missed class the other day. Wasn't feeling too well. Hmm... I really need to find out what happened. Maybe i'll post on the discussion board later on. I do know that the rough draft is due soon. I should get to writing that.

Which reminds me again! ITS PRESIDENT'S DAY MONDAY! Yay for 3 day weekends and no biolab/stem cell seminar mondays! (I hate my mondays) haha.

Hmmmm... I think that was it! I'll post again over the weekend and tell you what the boyfriend got me. xD I have a feeling it's flowers cause he was trying to be cautious or something about it >.> but not really xD. Who knows! /nervous and excited! haha. I got him something lame.. hope he doesn't mind too much >.>.... guys are weird. 8D


mm... I really need to remember posting in this. I bet my grade in english is like really low right now :(.... sigh. I need to raise my grades so badly >_< I hope that I can still manage to get a low A T__T... cause I really want to do good! stupid med school and its competitive requirements :(


Blaaarrr! Give me A'sssssssssssssssssssssssss Q____Q!!!!

Post moar later, ja ne.

One last thing before I sleep.

I looked at a couple people's blogs for english class... and I would just like to say one thing :D










Livejournal > Blogspot









kbye :D

It's 1 a.m. ..actually it's almost 2 a.m.

I can't sleep :D.

So here's the thing that keeps me awake sometimes, even if I don't want it to. (I had to re-post this because facebook was being annoying)

(Edit: big space below!)

While everyone else plays WoW, I play something lamer :(

But after years of playing this game, I seriously need to quit. Then again, I only recently started playing it again after having quit for a year or so. Whyyyyy!

I can't complain though <.< some things just keep getting better and better. Does anyone else play this ridiculous game on the international server, I wonder?

RO is lame! Someone save me ;__;

Actually I need sleep... mmm nah i'll go study for some stuff.

Ja mata ne!